Tired/Muede

November 2018

Having had several months of work I have figured that in fact, it was a combination of accumulated exhaustion and depression. I have started to drink a mug of St. Johnswort (a natural anti-depressant) every day and I have a lot more energy since.

July 2012

Never thought I would say that but lately I am so tired. Tired of writing. Tired of being creative. Tired down to the bone.

I have no idea if this is depression hitting in again, or just a life~long developed exhaustion due to trauma’s that have not been dealt with when they have happened. Maybe it is just getting old or too much stress at work. Maybe it is just not knowing yet how my cycles work.

Maybe it is just change. I believe that life is change and sometimes you are like a butterfly in chrysalis stage: You have to rest to let the old go and wait for the new to arrive!

Description for visually impaired readers: black and white photo of a wooden sculpture: a sleeping woman on a bench

November 2018

Da ich jetzt mehrere Monate ohne eine Arbeitsstelle bin, hatte ich die Chance herauszufinden, dass diese Muedigkeit wirklich eine Kombination von ueber Jahre angesammelter Muedigkeit und von Depression war. Ich habe begonnen, jeden Tag eine Tasse Johanniskraut Tee (ein natuerliches Anti-Depressum) zu trinken, und seither habe ich sehr viel mehr Energie.

Juli 2012

Habe nie gedacht, dass ich das mal schreiben wuerde aber in letzter Zeit bin ich muede. Muede des Schreibens. Muede des kreativ seins. Muede bis auf die Knochen.

Ich habe keine Ahnung, ob das wieder mal die Depression ist oder einfach nur eine lebenslang entwickelte Erschoepfung, die durch Traumata entstanden ist, die nicht richtig verarbeitet wurden als sie passierten. Vielleicht werde ich einfach nur alt oder habe zu viel Stress auf der Arbeit. Vielleicht weiss ich auch einfach noch nicht wie meine Zyklen funktionieren.

Vielleicht ist es auch einfach nur Veraenderung. Ich glaube daran, dass Leben immer waehrende Veraenderung ist und manchmal sind wir wie der Schmetterling im Puppen~Stadium: Du  musst das Alte gehen lassen und warten bis das Neue ankommt!

0 thoughts on “Tired/Muede

  1. Phoenix, come and rise again and be the butterfly I believe you are. Your last comment on my blog boosted me. Life has bad days and good days. I know…been there and want to move on with LIFE. I’ve come to realise it’s okay to feel tired for whatever reason – hormones, the past, cloudy weather, getting older, change…or it could be because I’m a spongy person. There is always hope with each new day. Listen to Happy music. Smile and stay in the present. My latest affirmation which I’d like to share with you:
    “Not only am I feeling good, but there are better days ahead.”

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    1. I hear your call and your comment made me smile. Am glad my comments gave you a boost. I think that is how the writing community should be ~ supporting each other. It is a lot better. Am off today and having my partners children around which is always a joy. Think I’ll give my inner child a day out and have some fun with them :-). You take care and thanks for the support

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